Star Date 03102016
All are gone from our house. Empty, in more ways than just the house. I know I’m not dead, but I feel loss in this place. I am struggling to focus on work, but know that I still have my job to perform, and want to finish strong…not to mention it will take my mind off the BS of the countdown. It was good to see everyone in one place. Well…almost everyone. Thank you to all who were able to make it to the party, for taking time away from your own families, work, homes, lives. Seems fitting that the following song is floating through my head and from my whistling lips. Needtobreathe…again, only this time, with Gavin DeGraw:
“Brother” Ramblers in the wilderness we can’t find what we need We get a little restless from the searching Get a little worn down in between Like a bull chasing the matador is the man left to his own schemes Everybody needs someone beside em’ shining like a lighthouse from the sea
Brother, let me be your shelter Never leave you all alone I can be the one you call When you’re low Brother, let me be your fortress When the night winds are driving on Be the one to light the way Bring you home
Face down in the desert now there’s a cage locked around my heart I found a way to drop the keys where my failures were Now my hands can’t reach that far I ain’t made for a rivalry I could never take the world alone I know that in my weakness I am strong, but It’s your love that brings me home
Brother, let me be your shelter Never leave you all alone I can be the one you call When you’re low Brother, let me be your fortress When the night winds are driving on Be the one to light the way Bring you home
And when you call and need me near Sayin’ where’d you go? Brother, I’m right here And on those days when the sky begins to fall You’re the blood of my blood We can get through it all
Brother, let me be your shelter Never leave you all alone I can be the one you call When you’re feelin’ low Brother, let me be your fortress When the night winds are driving on Be the one to light the way Bring you home
Brother, let me be your shelter Never leave you all alone I can be the one you call When you’re low Brother, let me be your fortress When the night winds are driving on Be the one to light the way Bring you home Be the one to light the way Bring you home
I am tired and achy…all over, not just Charlie. Ever since we got the news from Friday, the immediate sense of relief…just kinda swept over both Jess and me and my body is just done trying to hold me up. It’s not a bad thing, it’s just a thing. Before I head out today, I want to get the house put back together. Ma is coming this Friday. Plus, I do not want Jess to have to lift a finger this eve. I will have to get home to finish some stuff, as well as pack for the home office. Easy peasy. Hopefully.
Fast forward. The day is quickly going away, with still so much to do for today and tomorrow and Friday. Not enough time. I have managed to keep my mind busy, mostly due to phone calls, but busy nonetheless. Everything I wanted to get done is done. Less the “fun” paperwork having been notarized. That should be a hoot.
Fast forward. The lady at the UPS Store was an idiot and had the personality of a bean sprout…just as pasty white. For being in customer service, she was not at all customer friendly. Additionally, she mixed up the paperwork and did not offer to help figure it out. No worries…we hopefully won’t need to enact it. Does seem odd to carry an advanced directive with you when you go to the hospital. That makes this even more real…as if it didn’t already feel that way.
Final thought. I have nothing left today. I am drained and achier now than I was when the day started. Not much of a final thought, I am aware. I just don’t have words to put to anything right now. Norm should be happy…under 1k on the word count.
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